right now as i was walking i was thinking of life and goals, etc. and i decided i like two things: photography and encryption. these two things i’ve always loved since childhood. why didn’t i ever think to pursue them? i dunno. i chose broadcasting and rec. leadership instead. but even though broadcasting hasn’t been a childhood love, i am glad i have experienced it these past four years in college. recreation leadership is a type of childhood love i have since i grew up always playing outside and going on “adventures” with my friends and sometimes my sister. as far as encryption: its the art of coding messages and puzzles. in elementary school i made many codes for the english alphabet. the current one i’ve used for many years is based phonetically rather than symbolically representing each letter. all this stuff i did on my own so basically i LIKE to to them. i also remember getting my first camera and how much i loved to take pictures with it. it had strange film that came in the form of a disk cartridge. i later used my dad’s SLR from the 1970’s to take some awesome pics for high school and early college classes. a few weeks ago i was showing the pics to a friend and she commented highly of them. it made me ask myself why i’ve stopped pursuing the hobby… oh yeah my camera is in Wisconsin and has been for the past 6 years, but that will change when my mom brings it back to Utah tomorrow, then i can drive down to get it again. hmm, me and my camera reunited. it will be nostalgic.
i feel like in life i have tried new avenues and i am better as a result. the trade-off is being involved in things i have no passion for but only curiosity. i think i’m done with that route. now it’s time to go back to my old passions. that’s the way life is… you do things for a while and move on, then sometimes you come back to places you’ve been before. hopefully with a broader perspective on life. however, before finishing i have to say that by exploring my curiosities i’ve found new passions: such as passion for the outdoors and especially rock climbing. also the passion to help youth to find new direction in life (such as what i did while woking at Anasazi).
above all by trying new things, old things are not wasted. i may not have a “solid” goal in life as a result, but i have a better understanding of what’s on the other side of the fence, and i learned stuff about myself i probably would have never known had i not stepped out of my comfort zone.